Revising for my exam, my mind started to deviate from the lessons which were to come in exam. The mind reached a trance like state. Nothing was going in, nothing was coming out, but I was breathing.
Suddenly, I began to think about my family, my friends of my childhood, how we used to enjoy. Yes, how we used to enjoy without today’s gadgets, how we spent the time laughing, without internet.
What were those days…
We used to chill. Neither there was the tension of upcoming exams, nor the fear of future. Now, we had come a long way from that time. The life had took its toll, and I had started to forget to how to stay cool and stay smiling in every situation. What has the life made me. Away from parents, away from home, far-away in college, thinking extensively before going to home, planning the trip on our own.
As a child, I never cared about the trip travels. Parents used to take care of that.
Threshold of tears has now increased significantly, still it takes effort to control the tears, as to avoid the feeling of being ashamed( of crying at this age ).
Now I have to manage myself, and it seems a great and difficult job. The childhood was awesome. No worry about what tomorrow had for me. Now maturity has dawned. Now, I have to manage myself – grooming myself, washing clothes, managing budget etc.
Being adamant to always stay close to parents, now living far away is kind of crazy, and hard.
I really sometimes miss those, everybody does. Yes I want a time machine and want to go back and do what I have always wanted to do. Things that I repent now for not doing. The fears I had, I wanted to overcome them. I miss my miniature form…