If I belong to you I am lost
If I don’t, still I am lost
People say I am not myself
This is true as thou has transformed me into a different being
People exclaim different stories, stories borne between two of us
I still believe I was at total peace until I met thou
But things changed when thou stepped in my life
My mind is growing wilder because of you
Looking for some kind of sympathy and solitude
I can’t understand if I welcomed this wildness or you presented it to me
How pathetic has become my situation
Whom to shout out my dreadful heart
If I do it I appear as a thief
If I don’t, I’ll still be a steal-er, stealing feelings within
I tried to outcry but the people around me became deaf
Although I laugh, sing and dance but still I don’t find happiness in anything
Was I really entitled for this harsh treatment?
Sometimes I ask God and weep for hours
Real treasures are the time when friends are with you
But when they start appearing as strangers
start thinking thereon its not they, but you, a stranger
There are few who remain close to your heart
But there are fewer who become your fellows from followers
Things are changing with the changing world
Selfishness comes across everything
People try to catch your emotions
Nevertheless life goes on like the pangs of a swing inconsistently
Sometimes high, sometimes Low
Until one day you become a play-ball for everyone
Even then this trauma of loving someone doesn’t leave us
Something inside behold you to remain in this distress
With anxiety, commotion, chaos running over you
you reach to the summit of cowardliness
Carving a fake smile on your face
Leaving everyone believe, you still the same
But whom you are deceiving?
you know it well with every passing minute
The heart is going heavy with mixed feelings
Even in a crowd of thousands loneliness embraces you
Is happiness too costly for you?
You literally Knock down your head to find strong answers
Should you give yourself a second chance?
A similar voice from deep inside you says..
“No more you ‘jerk’ it will cost you ‘life’”
More minutes of wild actions
But who can be bigger than heart
And then life goes on with Shades of gray and white…..