Am ALONE YET DIFFERENT… Article on Loneliness

To be alone is to be different, to be different is to be alone.

There are millions of people in this world, but in the end, it all comes down to one. I think God leaves me alone to let me find my own strength because no one else can give it to me…

When anyone asks you  “what you fear the most?”.

What will be your answer? Reptiles, spider, darkness, heights, ghosts [well, even am afraid of all this but anyway :P ] ever remember saying loneliness. Well I remember mentioning this only .. not many know that I fear it… the first question I hear is,

“so.. you are afraid of being alone at home?”

I don’t think many understand what Loneliness is …they think you are alone you feel lonely… maybe they do, but I don’t mean that… even when am in a crowd I feel lonely… the emptiness that just seem to envelope me… there were times where I have felt dejected BUT now I like being alone cause I just got used to it… always left alone… but its sometimes painful…

What is loneliness?? Loneliness is a state of feeling cut off from and longing for others, due to lack of contact (physically, emotionally, etc.) with people (whether acquaintances, friends, or loved ones). Loneliness is not to be confused with solitude (where a person may appreciate the time to think and reflect without distraction). It is the state of being alone in solitary isolation. It means the forlornness i.e. sadness resulting from being forsaken or abandoned. It may also be the state of loneliness i.e. a disposition toward being alone…

You know that feeling you get when you start to realize you’re alone? When you just wake up one day and snap out of some trance you’ve been in. It’s like that rude awakening from the cold air. Well, it hit me today. Walking in the hallway with couples at lockers, ahead of me, behind me, all around me. Until all I see is a world paired off leaving me the odd one out… I’m not a girl that thinks a guy is the answer but I’m just tired of being alone…. :(

 “It was a dream, not a nightmare, a beautiful dream I could never imagine in a thousand nods. There was a guy next to me who wasn’t beautiful until he smiled and I felt that smile come at me in heat waves, following, soaking through my body and out my fingertips in shafts of color and I knew that somewhere in the world, somewhere, there was love for me.”

Sometimes I wish, I just wish there was someone…. Someone to whom I will be the world ,someone who will introduce me to his friends as his gal…..someone whose thought will just make me blush, smile…. Well those wishes still remain a dream yet to come…. :):)

“Somewhere on earth…I’ve got a soul mate. He was made in heaven to fit me perfectly. He’d attend to my every need, he’d understand my emotions, and I would be happy. He’s in my life…we just aren’t ready for each other yet.”

As this quote says we are just not ready …. :)

Sometimes … I think that the only person that loves me and cares about me is myself … sometimes I feel like guys only want to talk with me, tell me about their ‘so called beautiful gal’ and their silly problems cause they know I will be only person to hear all that crap….. then they ignore me and never care about me … maybe the only person I can trust is myself … maybe that is why I feel like no one will actually see the real me and inside my heart or what the shape of it is because there isn’t someone out there for me … and that’s why I am so insecure about falling in love….. :(

And Loneliness is never crueler than when it is felt in close propinquity with someone who has ceased to communicate…it hurts real bad when it happens… everything around you goes all gloomy and the worst sad songs on your ipod plays exactly at the same time… its so frustrating….

Sometimes I am happy that am alone because I don’t have to think about people, whether they are alright, what to talk, was I rude etc…. I don’t have to search for the answers to these questions… see… :)

And for me when alone I get the weirdest imaginations ,fantasies… and peacefully I get to doing things in my creative corner… listen nice songs… and when am alone I get nice stuffs to write about.. I know what you must be thinking now… well that’s right… right now am alone and  am writing this… :):)

ABOUT LONELINESS….

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