After a month, on another sunday at 12 noon, he called me to say something which really shocked me.
On phone after 15 min talk he said
“honey you know me very well ….isn’t it???”
“yah!!! I know that you are my sweetheart, without whom I can’t live”, I said in a normal way, without knowing his heart content.
“honey am serious”, he said angrily.
“me too”, I said in a firm voice.
“honey my daddy wants me to marry a girl of his choice”, he said in a sad voice.
“what???”, I asked him. I was freezed.
Suddenly tear drops came out from my eyes.
“yah!! I didn’t say everything about me to you. I never wanted you to know it. But now ,I want you to know everything about me”, he said .He seemed to be very serious.
“what happened honey???”, I asked politely.
“please don’t misunderstand me”, he said.
“yah!!!but what’s the problem honey…….tell me please”, I said in a sad voice.
“honey, I go for date with girls since I was of 17 . I did it because my dad wanted me to do it for him. He wanted to expand his business. It’s a matter of his reputation , if I’l be unable to marry any of them as he challenged it to one of his enemy .So, he wants me to marry any of his friend’s daughter .Otherwise, he’l not allow me to survive”, he said in a sad voice.
“honey don’t get upset. He is your dad. He can’t hurt you. He’l understand us”, I said to comfort him.
I wished, if I can hug my boy & make him feel relaxed.
“he will kill me & even you. He is a murderer”, he said.
My eyes just opened as big as it can. I felt as if my heartbeats were stopped.
“what???”, I asked him spontaneously .
I was shocked like never before.
“Yah!!! It’s true………..even I can be killed anytime by his enemies. There is no guarantee of my life”, he said.
“honey!!!”, I said out of shock.
“let me explain it to you .Since childhood am all alone. I studied at my uncle’s school, “A. J. Sinh’s education foundation”.
“It’s our school .But I went their only to attend my board exams. Pratiksha , my best friend helped me in my studies. I never enjoyed my school life. May be because of the same, I have no friends….”
“At college also, the story is not different. All are afraid of me because of my identity. No one understands me……my feelings……Am also a human being, who likes to be loved. I also want to have friends & enjoy my life. But no one cares for me”, he was so upset.
“Hey!!! Don’t get upset honey. Am there with you….”, I said in a humble voice.
“I know…..that’s why ,I want to be with you..”he said.
“at home also, the situation is not different .No one have time to even check whether am alive or not. They all are busy making money .The only thing I am taught is to be a stone hearted man, with only one target in life. And that’s money. There is absolutely nothing like love in our world”, he said.
“I’l change it for you dear….believe me”, I assured him.
“in my loneliness , I had only one thing which never left me, that’s my books. So, I would like to study as much as I can. Because, after that I have to continue with my family business.
“Yesterday also, there was raid by income tax officers. Daddy don’t pay taxes”, he said.
“but why you do all these things???”, I asked him.
“it’s the way we live honey….i can’t help it”, he said .
“Other than business, my family is active in politics. And often we buy land. Anyone can be killed by us. Nobody dares to raise their voice against us. Even our brides are welcomed by presenting them a gun ”,he said
“Now say, do you still love me??”, he asked me.
“honey I can understand the pain of a person, who since childhood had to play with guns & not toys”, I said.
“you are free to go……I’l not stop you .I also want the same……”, he said.
“honey…..”, I said emotionally.
“I had a nice time with you .These were the most beautiful moments of my life …….I’l never forget you …You are my life, my good luck, my goddess, who made an animal a human being .You are the only one who loved me in this world & am sure no one can love me more than you…..
Bye….
Take care…..”, he said in a way to end everything.
“no…..listen to me honey…….you are my hubby. I can’t live without you….”, I said emotionally.
“our virtual world is no more dear…It’s all over. Am not a perfect guy for you. Am sorry for everything ….
I’l not call you from now. You also don’t do it. I’l not pick up”, he said humbly.
“but honey……”I said.
He cancelled the call before I say something .I wanted to talk to him. I wished if I can make him comfortable with the situation .
I called him 5 times. He didn’t pick up. At the 6th time, I found his phone switched off. I kept on looking at the screen of my phone, eagerly waiting for his call.
After 7 hours, my phone rang. It was bhumit .My happiness had no boundaries for a moment. I picked up the call in no time .
“Am sorry my friend. I cancelled your call while you were telling something. So, what were you telling??? I just wanted to know that” , he said as if he was very busy & showed no interest in talking with me. Of course, he is Bhumit Sinh, who can’t be emotional.
He wanted to talk with me & so he just made a reason to call me. But I reacted as if I didn’t understand him .I never wanted my boy to feel bad. So, I talked.
“nothing…..are you fine???”, I asked him politely.
“Yah!!! what can happen to me….”, he said.
“had your dinner??”, I asked him. I just wanted to talk to him & make my hubby smile.
“can I sleep on your laps for sometime??? please……..”, he asked me emotionally.
From his voice, I understood that he’s crying.
“hey!!! What happened????Why are you crying??”, I asked him.
I found tears in my eyes too. I was unable to tolerate his pain. His pain hurted me more than him.
“no one loved me like you……..forgive me please………I can’t live without you”, he said & cried.
“honey…….stop crying. I love you. …you are my sweet hubby. Isn’t it!!!”, I said to comfort him.
“honey…….”, he called me emotionally.
“Then how can my sweet heart cry??? Come on , let me hug you…..come”, I said.
“Yah honey!!! I need your huggy”, he said.
“but honey I don’t use huggy . You still use dippers??”,I said in a funny way to make him laugh.
My boy finally laughed. Our talk continued throughout the clock. I made love with him again on phone to divert his mind from all his sorrows. And I was successful in doing so. I was able to sleep only after my honey slept.
I was always a victim of scolding from my parents for my ever busy phone. But love is something in which even pain gives pleasure. I was unable to get away from him.
After a week of this incidence, I decided to reveal my identity to him , something which I always wished to do, but had no courage to do it.
I called him and was totally prepared to get scolding from him. He picked up my call . And as usual, I got another great shock .By now, he has become an electric circuit in my life, who always rewarded me a good shock along with a beautiful hello.
“honey….”, I called him in a very sweet voice to reduce his intensity.
“yah honey..”, he said in a flirty voice.
“I love you so much”, I said. I wished if my flattering can serve me my intention & can reduce his intensity.
“I know…”, he said in a normal way.
“tell me that you love me too..”, I said.
“no”, he said in a funny manner.
“honey please……”, I said in a very flirty voice.
“ok…….i love you so much…”,he said.
“thank you”,I said with a great pleasure.
“honey….”, he said in a flirty manner.
“yah honey…..”,I said.
“kiss me….”, he said in a childish way.
“had your dinner??”,I asked him deliberately to change the topic.
“yah!!! i had…kiss me…….”, he said again.
“how was your day???”, I again changed the topic to angry him. I just enjoyed irritating him.
“very nice honey…….”,he said in a flirty way.
“honey…..”,he called me. He was stubborn.
“yah honey!!!”,I said in a childish way to control him.
“am telling you something…..”,he said.
“what honey???”,I asked.
“kiss me dear….”,my honey boy said.
“no”, I said in a naughty way.
“why???”, he said in a flirty way.
“”because…………I want to bite you……..”, I said in a very humble way.
“just do it”,he whispered.
“am feeling shy……..i can’t”, I said in a sweet voice.
“ok…..let me help you……I have removed your top”, he said.
“mine??? But why???”,I asked him. I was confused.
“to kiss your body” ,he said in a romantic way.
I was shy & I just blushed.
“no…..i’l not allow you to even touch me” ,I said in a naughty way.
“but I’l do it. It’s my right .Am your hubby”, he said in a naughty way.
“I have removed your clothes…….
You are so seductive….
muah”,he said humbly.
“stop it bad boy”, I said.
“no…why should I stop myself??? i’l not”, he said.
“then am going to bite your lips”, I said.
I was so happy to see my darling happy. I wished if he was with me.
“just do it…..muah”, he said.
“you are tempting me….muah”, I said in a flirty manner.
We talked the whole day. As soon as I was going to reveal my identity, he torn my heart. I still feel that pain in the centre of my heart & I was unable to reveal my identity.
**
In our later talks…..
“Honey”, he called me very humbly.
“yah!!”, I replied in a husky voice.
“I’l have to marry pratiksha”, he said.
As usual, I got my shock for the day. But this time, of higher voltage.
“pratiksha???”, I asked him.
“yah!!!my first love….”, he said.
Again giving me a nice shock.
By now, I felt the need of an electric shock to maintain my mental status normal.
“what????”,I asked just him.
“She is my best friend. I loved her very much…I was of 16 when I felt something special about her.”
“Our family also wanted us to be together. We used to study together. It was at time difficult for me to withdraw my eyes from her. I was not comfortable with her to be just friends. I always believed that she is mine. I was happy with her.
But unfortunately , we were separated by our destiny”, he said.
Then he said me the entire story about pratiksha. At times, I felt like just jumping off from the building . And when he praised her, I wished if I can reach him through the phone & just beat him. I said to myself that if she dares to separate him from me, then I’l join his family business & just kill her. I just controlled myself.
I wanted to ask him,” who am I for you then???” But, I felt that my question may hurt him. So, I just controlled my anger.
I really wanted to know that he still loves her or not. So, I just asked him,
“do you still love her??”
“honey….it’s all over now”, he said.
“say yes or no…”, I said.
My voice was amplified & for a moment. He posed.
“honey……. I don’t know”, he said humbly.
“propose her”, I ordered him.
“her father will kill me…….why her father…..my father will kill me”, he was afraid to do it.
I was upset. But , I didn’t show it off. For me, there was nothing more than him…….his happiness. For him, I was ready to share his love or even to forget him. I found tears rolling down my cheeks.
“do you still talk with her???”, I asked him.
“sometimes…. we call eachother…”, he said.
“next time when you will talk with her , just propose her…”, I said.
“do you think she will say yes to me???”, he asked me very eagerly.
“Yah!! I’l pray for you”, I said sadly.
“I believe you. You understand people very fast. Even you understood me, whom people consider to be mystery ”, he said.
By now, I was really very upset . I was no more able to control myself.
“I want to know something…..”, I said.
“yah!!!sure”, he said.
I finally decided to ask him the question which was there in my mind since the beginning of our conversation.
“who am I for you???”,I asked him.
“honey……am sorry But……..
Honey , I feel pleasure talking to you. No one cares for me like you. You loves me….
I want you always in my life. Because, you are the one who understands me. But I can’t marry you” ,he said.
“don’t marry me. But, let me know how to forget you???”, I asked him.
“we never met each other .So, it will be easier for us to forget each other ”,he said.
“fine”, I said angrily.
“I can’t say no to my dad .If I’l marry you , I’l have to leave my parents & without his money, we can’t settle honey. It will be a tough time for us. We will have to struggle a lot to meet our two ends”, he said.
“If you are with me, I am ready to sleep even on road with you…..I want you….only you & not your money”, I said strongly.
“I know honey. But we will have no shelter , no food &……”, he said.
Before he completes the list , I said
“& when we will have, we will have it together”.
He posed for a moment.
“Honey, it’s not possible. Why don’t you think practically???”, he asked me.
“muah….”, I kissed him to make him feel relaxed.
“Are you fine now???”, I asked him.
“Honey….”, he called me in a sad voice.
“Don’t worry honey, my parents will be there with us”, I assured him.
“Will your parents let you marry a homeless boy, with whom you will not be safe???”, he asked me.
“I am always safe in your arms, I know………..& initially they will help us to settle honey”, I said.
“I’l not go in front of your parents & plead to stretch a hand of help towards me”, he said in a loud voice.
“Dear it’s our money. Why you think like this???”, I asked him humbly.
“I can’t .Because you are my responsibility & am not your responsibility”, he said.
“We will earn”, I said.
“without dad’s money, I am nothing. Since childhood , I am habitual to comfort & luxury. I can’t leave it .Since childhood, I get everything I want ”, he said.
I was so angry with him .I was thinking that why he can’t see my love. He was interested in money & nothing else. I felt like shouting at him “can’t you see anything except money???”
But I controlled & just said “except love” ,angrily.
“yah!!! It’s true….But now, it’s not possible for me to leave it”, he said.
“what if you can’t fulfill the needs of your child??? It’s better to not to give birth to child”, he said.
“ & what if you can gift the world to your child but don’t have time to sit & talk with them & to love them???”, I said angrily.
“stop it!!!”, he said angrily.
“I love you. I can’t live without you. If money is your priority then you are my priority. Did you understand???”, I just shouted at him.
“honey…”, he said emotionally.
His voice made me to melt . I started crying.
“I love you honey….”, I said then.
“I love you too….come…hug me”,he said politely.
“Yah !!!! I also need it”, I said.
“I want to sleep whole night on your arms”, he said in a humble way.
“me too…..”, I said.
“just stay here only……hug me tight. Don’t move. Let me enjoy this moment as long as I can”, he said.
We always enjoyed the feelings even though, it was just on phone.
“I’l be there with you even in my last breathe”, I said .
We then kissed. For a moment I felt like again my destiny favored me.
“you’l not leave me. Isn’t it???”, I asked him
“I’l never be able to do it…say that you love me so much”, he said.
“yah!!! I love you so much”, I said.
Sometimes, he was so confused. I didn’t understand whether he loves me or not. But , it was all the result of his family background.
There was silence around us. But, suddenly I remembered that I haven’t done an important task, which I should do.
I didn’t reveal my identity….i was a bit nervous. But I still I decided to do it. I was no more interested in keeping my sweetheart in darkness of jasmine .I wanted to become his “Sanjana.”
“honey!!! i want to tell something ”, I said.
“yah honey!!! Say….”, he said very sweetly.
“am sorry honey. I wanted you to know something about me. Am sorry for hiding it so long from you…. ”,I said.
“what’s it honey???”, he asked.
“honey my name is Sanjana & am……” before I complete , he said….
“& you are Arjun’s friend .I know…”, he said.
Again, I got my daily shock…
“what???? But how???”, I asked him. I was surprised.
“honey….my name is Bhumit….nothing is impossible for me…”, he said
“say baby…how do you know???”, I asked him
“from true-caller I found your name & rest of the information, I managed to have. I know everything about you & your family”, he said in a cool way.
I was a bit hesitated to talk to him.
“are you angry with me???”, I asked him.
“not at all honey. How I can be angry with my sweet heart!! I can understand honey .You had privacy concerns. Isn’t it???”, he said.
I was a bit comfortable….
”Yah!!! That’s right. But if you know everything about me , then why you didn’t ask me about it???”, I asked him.
“I never wanted to make you uncomfortable. I gave you time to trust me ”, he said.
“I trust you honey….more than me….more than my god…”, I assured him.
“I know that honey….that’s why you are mine & am yours…”, he said.
“leave it dear….
honey I can’t live without you now. I’l marry only you. If not you , then no one else…”, he said in a firm voice.
“Let’s hope for the best….”, I said him.
“Honey….”, I called him in a very romantic voice.
“yah honey!!!”, he replied in a flirty voice.
“How many children do you want???”, I asked him. I was shy to ask him this question .But still I asked him.
“I want a honey princess like you…”, he said.
“I want a princess too…& what we will name them???”, I asked him.
“I’l name my my princess as Jasmine…”, he said.
I laughed & said ,”I’l name my boy as Sumit”, I said.
“Sumit!!!”, he asked me in a strange voice.
“yah!!! Bhumit’s son Sumit…..isn’t it a nice name???”, I asked him.
“it’s nice honey…”, he said.
“honey….i love you so much & good night….”I said.
“why??? No honey….don’t go please….”, he said.
He appeared to be so childish that I felt him to be a sweet honey….
“ honey it’s 2 am now….Go to your bed. We’l talk tomorrow….bye…”, I said.
“ok…bye”, he said. From his voice I understood that he never wanted to cancel the call. So, he didn’t do it for me.
After a small pose, I said, “cancel the call honey!!!”
“no you cancel….”, he said. He was not ready to listen to me.
“Naughty boy…comeon ,cancel the call”, I said.
“my phone is not working properly…..”, he said.
He banked the table & said ,”see…am trying to cancel the call. But it’s not working… I think you have to do it now”, he said.
“Honey, I can’t do it…”, I said.
“then I also can’t do it…..”, he said.
“muah….now I kissed you. So, now you are supposed to cancel the call. Come on. Just do it… Just press the red button on your phone….”, I said.
“there’s no red button on my phone for you”, he said humbly.
Suddenly, the phone got cancelled. I didn’t understand what happened actually. He didn’t even called me back. After 5 min, I called him & started shouting at him.
He just said, ”honey just listen to me .My phone balance is over .It’s zero honey .I can’t even make a miscalled to you. That’s why honey……I’l call you tomorrow honey. Bye ….muah…I love you …good night” & he just cancelled the call.
My parents had a doubt about my affair. So, I was helpless.
It was diwali the day after. So, I had to go home for 3 days .I went with my friends on train .I had 5 hours time to talk with him throughout the way. I just used it. On the way also, I got scolding from Daddy for my busy phone. He wanted to know about my where being after every 30 minutes. I just had an escape because of my friend Varsha .She helped me by picking up Daddy’s call & said, “uncle she is sleeping in the upper birth .Should I wake her up???”
Daddy had a doubt, but still he said ,”no…..let her sleep”.
Throughout the way, he just said me one thing ,”honey!!! I can’t live without you. I know mummy-Daddy are important But, you should call me atleast once a day. Let it be for just 5 mins. But you should honey….please & I know that you also can’t live without me.
I’l always wait for your call. Just give me a missed call .I’l for sure call you back within 5 mins. If I fail to call you back in 5 mins , then don’t worry; I’l not call you then. Because I know that your parents are very strict…..”.
He then said, “honey I’l just kiss you on your cheeks ,then on your lips, then on your forehead & then we will have a long kiss then I’l hug you & then you can cancel the call”, in a very childish way. I felt like just hugging him tight & just kiss my honey boy.
As soon as I reached home, I saw mummy happy .But with a lots of question marks on her face. But she didn’t ask me any of them till 11.
At 11, I went to my balcony with my phone & I took my earphones so that I can say that am listening songs to my parents, in case they wake up .
I first played a song & they paused the song as soon as it started & then gave him a ring. Within no time, he called me back. And as expected, it happened I just said, “hello honey ” & before I finish “how are you??” ,they woke up & asked “me who’s on phone talking with you late night???”
The question freezed me more than winter snow falls .I cancelled his call & said ,”mummy am listening songs & removed the earphones ….”
The paused song continued. But, they wanted the phone to be with them. Daddy just snatched the phone from me & kept it with him .I managed to inform him about the same through Daddy’s phone just after 10 minutes of this incidence. I went to washroom after conforming that mummy & daddy slept & texted him,” dear my phone is with daddy. So, don’t call me for some days & this is daddy’s number. So, you just delete it. Otherwise you may get confused between my numbers & I’l get fused then. Then I wrote ,”don’t reply even to this message…good night…I love you”.
Next day, we planned for a picnic to Diu. Daddy allowed me to keep the cell with me for the time being. I had to return it to him as soon as I reach home.
My schoolmates, Sakshi & Prerna & their families joined us. Even in the mid of enjoyment , I missed him.
Throughout the way, they were busy telling me about their college life & their new friends. But ,I was busy thinking about him. I missed my crazy stupid fellow very much. On the way, I found a chocolate shop. Suddenly I remembered that he loves Italian chocolates .I wanted to buy it for him. I went to the shop with my friends & bought it for him with the money I was saving to buy a gift for daddy’s birthday. I wanted to gift dad a shirt.
I was sad. But, I never gave a second thought to it. I just bought the chocolates for him.
I then managed to call him. But, I was caught & dad scolded me in front of everybody.
“what’s there in the phone??? Give it to me”, he shouted. His face reminded me of a volcano.
I just gave the phone to him. thank god, he switched it off immediately. Otherwise , if bhumit would have messaged me, then dad would have parceled me directly to god.
**
I had no phone. I managed to talk with him just for 1 minute through daddy’s phone every night in washroom. I just said, ”bye honey good night” & he replied, “good night honey…I love you”.
But, I was just fired when he messaged me on my phone ,”honey !!! I love you. Now , I can’t live without you. I want to talk to you. I’l call you tonight 11” , & daddy read it .
Thank god, he was at his office when he got the message. Otherwise, he would have killed me. But he never told me about the message.
Finally, the third day, my battle was over. My holidays were over by now & I had to return back. For the first time, I was happy to go back college & I was presented my phone with a warning, “don’t you dare to call him again. Otherwise , it will be the last day of your college & you will get married to someone”, daddy said with a fierce look.
But, he drove me crazy & I was helpless. I called him as soon as the train started & just crossed the station. But he was busy with his friends. So, we didn’t talk .
He called me at night. I told him everything about three great days of my life & he laughed. I was angry with him. He just kissed me through the phone to make me calm & said, ”you are so innocent. Straight trees & straight forward person are cut first”.
I didn’t understand. He never believed that I bought the chocolates for him & said ,”I don’t want the chocolates” making me sad.
Next day, he called me at 11:50 am. But, today the story was different .He opened his heart to show me its actual content.
“hi friend….how are you???”, he asked in a normal way. But he voice made me feel something strange.
“am fine. Had your breakfast??”,I asked him.
“yah!!!”, he said.
“honey….i love you”, I said in a romantic voice , without knowing his mind.
“but I don’t …I can’t love you. I never loved you. I just enjoy talking with you , nothing else”, he said.
“What???”, I was shocked. He was not less than a wave, which at times rise to the height & at the other end just falls down & join & mix with the mud. I didn’t understand actually what is there in his mind.
“yah!!! I’ts true….”, he said.
I got my shock treatment of the day. The story is something beyond my understandings. When I said , “we can’t be together .So, leave me”,
he said,” I can’t live without you. You are my life.”
And now, when he is my life, he wants to separate me from him.
“but honey….I love you..what happened to you??? Is everything fine over there???”, I asked him.
“I love Pratiksha & not you. You are not of my level”, he said me very rudely.
“great……but I’l love you. Your life is your wish .I’l never be an obstacle in your life. Don’t worry. But , if she fails to make you happy , she’l not be happy. Because , your happiness is my priority. There’s nothing more than that for me…”, I said.
“Why you love me so much??? I want to continue our relationship even after my marriage”, he said politely.
“but I don’t want to be with you then. Be loyal to her”, I said angrily.
“I was loyal to you .I never demanded even for your phooto’s till today , though you have mine. Because, I know that you are not so beautiful to fall in love with .Arjun always talks about you in the room. He has a crush on you. But don’t worry . I’l never let him know about us”, he said.
“But us is no more….I never demanded your photo. You mailed it to me”, I said angrily.
“Yah!!! Because I trust you …….”, he then said.
“& why us is no more??? We are still together”, he said in a firm voice.
“so, still you trust me….”, I said . I wanted to make him realize his love for me.
“yes ,because I know that you can’t even think of hurting someone”, he said.
“but if you don’t love me, then why you contacted me again??? Your calls, messages, mails , were never replied. Still you did it all, ”I said.
“ Because you are my friend….anyways, bye”, he said.
But again, the call was not cancelled. I kept on telling “hello”, but he didn’t reply me.
Sometimes, I felt like Bhumit was unable to understand his mind. I was totally diverted from my studies .I forgot everything , even about my dreams.
For me, Bhumit was my only world, my only happiness .I had nothing else except him, his memories by now in my life. Whole day I talked with him & in return , I got only scolding from my parents for my ever busy phone & low battery.
By now, lost everything , my love, my life, my career, everything. But still, I loved him. I was ready to compromise everything, all my happiness to see him happy.
Next day, he called me at 1:30 noon. My heart melted seeing his name & I forgot everything.
I picked up his call.
“who’s this???”, I asked him. I wanted him to feel my anger & realize my pain.
“honey…had your lunch???”, he asked me politely.
“does it make any difference to you???”, I asked him angrily.
“I just asked you. I just want to know whether my friend had something today or not….”, he said.
“are you stressed???”, I asked him.
“yah!! How do you know???”, he asked me.
“because you called me…..your favorite time pass”, I said.
“just shut up….you were never my time pass”, he shouted.
“then who am I for you???”, I asked him.
“my best friend….whom I like”, he said.
I was not comfortable to hear that am his “just friend.” I loved him & I was angrily with him.
“then call your love & talk to her”, I said angrily.
“I can’t call her….otherwise, I would have done it”, he said.
“I don’t want to talk to you…..bye”, I then said & cancelled the call.
I was his best friend, about whom he didn’t say to the world. He always talked with me on phone because he wanted me to be with him in every moment of his life. He never cancelled my call .He had no problem in making conference with his friends if he had some work when am on call. He wanted me to know all his secrets.
By now, I was totally depressed. He was my addiction & I had to do engage myself on social networking sites to forget him.
As a part of it ,I talked with his friends, Pavan & Paresh, on fb from my fake account with user name “Jasmine”. Pavan recently had a break up. So, he understood my pain. I soon became his best friend & for Paresh , I was his sister.
But I never let them know that I am Sanjana as I promised it to Bhumit. Because, he will be unable to tolerate if his friends knew that he lied to them about me.
He said me that, “for them Jasmine is a beautiful girl, who belongs to a sophisticated family & he had a crush on her.”
“ But Sanjana is a normal girl with average looks, his present time-pass”.
He wanted me to stay away from his friends, as he was afraid that I may be create problems in his life. He stopped trusting me & tried his best to break all the links which connected us.
So, I had to promise him that I’l not share any of our information with anyone.
After a week of this incidence, on phone….
After a short talk….
“honey , am so happy today…Daddy came to my room after 3 months to meet me…..”, he said. He was so happy.
“so what???”, I asked him in a usual way.
“all are not lucky like you dear. There are people who get their parents love once in a blue moon….”, he said.
Before he completes I said, “inspite of living under the same roof….”
“For me , it’s the only thing I have in my life”.
“That’s why , am jealous if you”, he said.
Suddenly, I heard a voice through phone asking him, “son!!! had your lunch???” It was his mother.
But, his reply was very rude ,”stay away from me”.
I was shocked about his reaction. I asked him , if there was any problem between him & his mother.
He just said, “she don’t have right to interfere in my life”.
I kept on thinking about the matter throughout the day & decided to solve the problem .It was 11 pm when he called me for the 2nd time, the entire day.
“hello honey!!!”, he said happily.
“hi…..you seems to be happy!!”, I said.
“yah!! I am”, he said.
“can I know the reason???”, I asked him.
“Daddy came to meet me dear. I am so exited… ”, he said.
“yah!! I know….So, finally he got time for his son”, I said.
“yah!!! In spite of being busy with his work”, he said.
“I have decided something…”, he then said.
“what??”, I asked him.
“that I’l marry either you or Pratiksha .No one else”, he said.
“it can’t be me”,I said.
“I like you…”, he said.
“but you love her..”, I said.
“leave it!! I want to know something…”, I said.
“what???”, he asked me.
“about your mother”, I said.
“I don’t want to talk about her”, he said angrily.
“just tell me one thing. Just one thing & I’l never talk about her…. Is she your step- mother???”, I asked him.
“no….”, he babbled in a way as if he want to hide something.
“then???”, I asked.
“that you’l not understand…”, he said.
“because you don’t want me to understand. Just because your Daddy came to your room, you are celebrating the day. And what about your mummy???”, I asked.
“stop talking about her…”, he said angrily.
“here no one loves anybody. Once I return to college, she don’t even call me .She talks to me only after I return home. She’s least bothered about whether am alive or not…”, he said.
Before he completes, I said, “the story is same about your father also ”.
“but, he is really busy with his work. That’s why….”, he replied.
“if your parents don’t call you, then why can’t you call them??? You only said that they are busy making money. And, it’s for you, your comfort”, I said.
“stop delivering your dialogues. I know that you are a great philosopher & good for nothing”, he said rudely.
“except loving you…….bye”, I said.
“am sorry honey. But please don’t talk about her in front of me”, he said.
“I just wanted to help you. Because , I want you to be satisfied with your life”, I said.
“oh!!! Don’t worry. Am happy ok….”, he said in a bit harsh voice.
“really???but still you want someone to talk with you, to love you”, I said.
“I talk with you because you are my friend”, he said in a strong voice.
“I know am your just friend…”, I replied angrily.
“yah!!!we are just friends…..”, he said.
“but still you are my husband”, I said.
“oh!! In virtual world. Just forget it. It’s all over”, he said in an attitude.
“I know….bye”, I said softly.
After 5 min……
“cancel the call…”, he said.
“why can’t you do it???”,I said in an attitude.
“because I can’t do it to you….”, he said.
“I also…..”, I said.
I heard the voice of a car through the phone .It was his father.
He said “oh shit!!! Honey, father came …..bye….I love you” & cancelled the call .
At night 11, he called me….
“Hi!!! why you didn’t call me???”, he just asked me.
It was then when I realized that he was waiting for my call.
But I said, “why should I ??? ”
“what happened??? Are you angry with me???”, he asked me politely.
“none of your business”, I said angrily.
“had your dinner my friend???”, he asked me.
“yah!!!”, I replied.
“I also had…..”, he said.
“I didn’t ask you….”, I said.
“but I just said. Because I know that you care for me. Are you angry with me???”, he asked me humbly.
“who am I to become angrily with you???”, I asked him angrily.
“honey!!! there is no future of Pratiksha & me .Our parents can’t be together .She was….She’l not be there in my life if you are with me, I promise you that….”, he said humbly.
“oh really!!!”, I said ironically.
“yah!!! I love you…”, he said very humbly.
My heart melted.
“I love you too”, I said then.
I was unable to continue my anger with my sweet heart. There were tears in my eyes.
“ I don’t deserve you. But still you love me. Why?? ”, he said humbly.
I said, “don’t think like that honey. Come, hug me…”, I said. I wanted him to be comfortable.
“yah!!! I need it….”, he said emotionally.
There was silence around . After a short time.
“honey…”, he called me in a flirty manner.
“yah honey!!!”, I said humbly.
“muah…..”, he kissed me.
“muah….. honey, i love you…..”, I said.
“are you fine now…..”, he asked.
I was confused. I was fine only. But then I understood his question & said, “oh!!!you are so fast….you did it all”. I blushed then.
He laughed & said ,“now nothing can interrupt us in our life……not even our clothes….”
“but you messed up very fast….you know. I was confused by your question…”, I said & laughed.
He also laughed. We talked the whole night .It was 1am , I was sitting in the corridors to talk with him .I was wearing my light blue night dress .
The cool winter breeze made me to shiver But, I was busy warming his heart.
Still , he was never serious about me or my love. I knew that .I wasn’t his love .I was just something more than a game for him. But I was happy even to be his toy.
I just wanted to answer the world that it’s not always the physical beauty which makes you loveable. But, it’s your heart which makes you perfect for someone.
But there was something which connected our crazy hearts. A strong telepathy always worked out between us .May be because of the same, whenever he was hurt , I was also hurt, mostly for the same reason & for the same duration. Even when, he was depressed, I called him because I also found myself to be hurt at the same time.
Same with me, I also found him with me through his calls, whenever I was hurt .This made me love him more & more. May be because of the same, once I said him, “I love you more than my virginity”, when he asked me, “how much you love me???”
But, Bhumit was no more mine . I called him at night 12. He didn’t pick up my call as he was busy with someone else on phone.
He changed. May be because of the same he managed 47 hrs. without talking to me. But, I was unable to handle his negligence. I finally called him at 11 pm, the next day.
“hello!!!where were you…..”, I asked him eagerly.
“hi!!! I was busy with my work….so, I didn’t pick up. Then I had sleeping pills ….so I just slept”, he said in a normal way.
“you started again??? You promised me that you will have no more pills. Isn’t it???”,
I scolded him.
“but, yesterday it was required. That’s why I had”, he said.
He didn’t even apologize to me. He showed no concern for me. I asked him, “who was she???”
After a pose, he said, “who??”
“your new friend, with whom you were busy last night on phone….”, I replied.
He babbled first & then he said, “dhanya, my friend. We were studying ”.
“what ???biology…..”, I asked him.
For me , my biology was all about sex. But he didn’t understand & said,” yes. We were preparing for our practical exams”.
“so you did it???”, I asked ironically.
“what???”, he asked me.
“biology practicals. What else???”, I said in an easy way.
“no”, he said.
“why??? You would have done it”, I said.
“honey, she is a bitch. She said that she loves me & wants to sleep with me”, he said.
“then you would have done it…..”, I said.
“no way!!! She is not of my level….”, he said in a strong voice.
“oh!!! So, you find her also of some other level!!!”, I said.
“you know what Pavan said to me…. He said that I should just use & throw her , like all my friends do”, he said.
“then he would have said it for me also….”, I said. I just wanted to conform.
“yah!! Am sorry but…..am just telling you the truth. You know that I never lie…”, he said.
“I know….What else he said for me???”, I asked him.
“that you are not of my level…but I can’t do it to you. I don’t know why, but I can’t hurt you….”, he said.
“I want you to promise me something….”, I said.
“yah!! I know….you want me to promise you that I’l not do it with you…..isn’t it???”, he said.
“yah!!”, I said.
“I promise you that .But, I’l kiss you when we’l meet…& I’l do it with you four times a day….”, he said.
“four times????”, I asked him. I was shocked.
“yah!!!”, he said in an easy way.
“but when ??? because generally you wake up at 12 pm…..”,I asked him.
“at that time first….”, he said before I complete.
I laughed & asked him, “then???”
“then at 6, then again at 12 & then at 6 …..”, he said.
“early morning you will wake up to do it???”, I asked him.
“anything for you honey”, he said in a flirty voice.
“in short , I’l be your bed coffee, your evening prayer, your cradle song & your early morning…..”,I said then.
“you’l be my everything”, he said.
“I want my honey to be like this always …..so funny…..so romantic…..so cool…..muah”, I said in a romantic voice.
“I want to hug you honey….let me feel your heart beats”, he said.
‘’yah!!! Come….i love you….”, I said humbly.
Suddenly he said, “my dear friend!!! Don’t talk like this with me .Am a practical person. I have no emotions. You are just my friend .You are not of my level . I want to sleep….. bye”
“but……”, I said in a sad voice.
Before I complete ,“bye….”, he said.
I was so sad by his reaction. I didn’t understand why he came to my life, so close to me if he had to go. I felt that he wants me to be with him . But , there was something which stopped him to be with me. I was so confused about him.
Next day again he called me in spite of knowing that my exams are going on .I had a lot to study. I didn’t even get time to comb my hairs the entire day after my shower. I was in my blue yellow night suit, which I wore the previous day also. But, I was unable to control my mind. I picked up his call.
“Hello my friend….”, he said.
“Hello…”, I said.
“Had your dinner??”, he asked me.
“Yah!!!”, I said .I was confused about what else to say.
“Hey!!! I want your help….”,he said.
“What??”, I asked.
“It’s Pratiksha’s birthday day after tomorrow .After long time, our families are back. I want to make her feel very special with me . What should I gift her???”, he asked me.
He was lying. The feud was still going on & both the families didn’t talk. Still he lied to separate me from him.
“you know better about her likes….”, I said.
“but you understand people very fast. Help me please”, he said.
I wanted all his wishes to be fulfilled, whether it hurts me or not. He should be happy always. He should always be at the top .So, I decided to help him. I asked him,”how is she??”.
“She is very pretty….. very childish…. very sweet…….“he said.
“Then gift your doll a Barbie”, I said.
“I have already gifted it to her. Even chocolates, golden chain, all are her daily stuffs. I want to gift her something expensive”, he said.
“It’s not always the price tag which matters. It’s the true heart which should make the gift special. Gift your love. Let her know it….” I said. There were tears in my eyes.
“What do you mean???”, he asked me.
“A ring”., I said.
“Hey, that’s a great idea. Thank you so much my dear. It’s the best gift I can gift her. I am so eager to gift it to her. Anyways, it’s your exam isn’t it???”, he asked me.
“Yah!!! Tomorrow”, I said.
“all the best …..bye…good night”, he said. He was very happy.
“bye”, I said.
For the first time, our mood was equal but opposite. His happiness had the equal intensity as that of my sadness. I cried the whole night .My exams were not supported by my preoccupied mind. I was lost…..
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